Sunday, June 28, 2009

Despite a previous post....

I am staying in Lebanon for two years as previously planned!! It has been nothing short of an emotional rollercoaster ride of life decision making. After making my first decision to back out of my M.A and come home I was really upset and regreted such decision. So after having a conversation with a friend of my dad and trying countless times to explain to family and friends why I wasn't coming back, which I couldn't quite do well, I decided I really wanted to stay. There are a lot of things that I struggle with here but I've decided instead of dwelling on them in boredom I would use them to become a stronger person. Learning Arabic as well as I hopefully will over the course of 2 years will be a huge lifetime benefit for me that is priceless. Also I have a lot to look forward to with my studies and hopefully the opportunity to meet politicians here through a family friend. I think I finally made the right decision, but as my best friend's older sister Natalie said, sometimes its just a relief to make a decision at all! :)

I will be home soon!! We land in Seattle July 2nd around 5pm! See you all very shortly! OH For those of my friends/family in WA, if you are able we need to get together before I leave Sept 16th. Email or call me if you're in the Wenatchee Valley or whatever!

Much Love,

Sash

Monday, June 22, 2009

Things I've Learned on my Journey....

Now that things are winding down on my stay here in Lebanon I have been thinking a lot about all the things I have learned during my stay. Now, there is a laundry list for sure. Some are silly, some are too personal to share but some are big/interesting so I thought I'd share them.

1. I DETEST Mosquitos. I seriously hate the little things. I mean do they serve a purpose? Besides causing itchiness and spreading disease...yuck.
2. I learned I have a deep passion for women's issues and that Feminism isn't just a crazy bunch of nonsense for women who hate all men. On that line I also learned I like to write and share both my experiences and experiences of others and that maybe I had it right with the first major I declared....Journalism....oops! :)
3. I've learned a bit about what it takes and what it means to be a good Lebanese woman...and that I don't quite fit that mold. The importance of hospitality and service. While I didnt end up learning how to cook, I learned the importance of food and the rituals of cooking. I learned how much labor it takes to keep a house clean when you dont have 'help'. That men are most of the time served first and if a man is at the table in a restaurant regardless of who is ready to order the waiter will look at him first. That Muslim women here "chose" to cover their heads, they are not forced by the government like in Saudi Arabia or Iran, and while many people do, many others dont. And of those who do 1/2 of them bedazzle their head scarves to make them fancy...
4. I learned what its like to have brothers...and have the bruises to show it
5. I learned the difference between Lebanon as a vacation spot and Lebanon as a place to live....thats a big one.
6. I learned the difference between the sounds of gunshots, bombs, thunder and fireworks (important)
7. The value and importance of family...and the drama that can ensue when you live to close together...
8. That Arabic is much more difficult than expected and you don't just "pick it up" around the house. The formal Arabic taught in classrooms and the spoken language are worlds apart...
9. Turns out I actually get homesick...this is something I did NOT expect
10. And most important, I learned that I am through and through an American! There are many many things I love about Lebanon but I learned that my home is in America and that I truly value the rights and freedoms we have in our country. Although to people here in Lebanon it seems like we have too many rules to abide by (aka laws....something that are just suggestsions here) they are in place to protect our way of life and our laws are nothing compared to the social laws they have to abide by here. Independence is something I have strived for since I left for college and that is exactly what being an American is about (well partly I mean). Independence is not something many women my age have here, and it is something I need to be happy.

All in all my two months here were an excellent experience. I truly learned a lot and thought long and hard about what I want out of life and who I am. I have realized I know neither, completely! :) Not in a bad way, but in a "I need time to grow up a bit" way. I am excited to come home to the States and work for my own money and live a life of appreciation for my country while maintaining a curiousity and a thirst for knowledge of how other people live in other countries. In the last couple of weeks I have changed my mind once again on the path that life is going to take me down and I will be coming home in July for "good". (I will never stop travelling so Im not sure what "for good" actually means!) While I wont pursue an MA in the states immediately after returning home due to deadlines of universities and such like I could if I were here in Lebanon, I am planning on working and saving money so that perhaps I can afford by this winter to take an unpaid internship in DC or NYC to get my foot in the door with the UN or the Federal Government. One important thing I learned is that I need to just be Sasha and I need to figure out just what being Sasha means before I throw myself into a culture that requires so much personal adaptation. :)

Thanks for reading my blog! If something exciting happens in the next week I'll report it. We are leaving Lebanon June 30th then spending a few days in London with Mara and we'll all be home July 2nd! I am looking forward to seeing everyone! I have missed home quite a lot! But what I am most excited for is my 2 week trip to Minnesota to see my moms side of the family and meet the newest addition to our family Finn who has become quite the blessing and the most important miracle our family has seen for sure!!

Much love,

Sash

Monday, June 15, 2009

New Pics...

Are up....comments to come soon, but it is bedtime now!! The pictures are from Mara's arrival and time at the beach, the Cedars of Lebanon, the snow pictures are from the top of the mountains above the Cedars and then of Baalbeck, which are ancient Roman (and others) ruins in East Lebanon very close to the Syrian border.

Much love,

Sasha

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Arrivals and more

Well, the last few days have been busier than I've been used to since graduation that is for sure! I will try to breifly give you a run down since everyone is exhasted and wants to go to bed.  

Wednesday Mara arrived from the US via Latvia, where her grandparents live.  It was really great to see her finally and really strange to be greating a friend from home at the airport! I mean this is LEBANON! haha none of my friends come here! haha Then we went Thursday to the airport to pick up Sonia, Mom and Dad.  And it has been chaos ever since! :)

We have definitely been keeping ourselves busy with going to the beach, out at night and today going to the mountains to my dad's old village Husroun, then to the famous Cedars of Lebanon and to the ancient ruins Baalbeck.  It was a looooonnnnnngggggg day today! 

Usually I have more to say and less to do, now there has been non stop activities and I dont have much to say about it other than it was fun! OH ANDDD I rode a camel today. Thats an important fact! :)

Much Love,

Sash

Monday, June 8, 2009

Often times in a Democracy the other guy wins....

But this time Democracy proved fruitful for the Christian/Sunnis coalition 14 of March! This makes it official that every election I have voted in the person/ppl I voted for won! Wow!! Can't wait to vote for myself for President! :)  

The reason I titled this post one of my favorite quotes from the West Wing (when the President is pissed that one of his former enemies won a seat on the school board back home and his press secretary told him that often times in democracy the other guy wins) is because it is such a great quote to keep elections in perspective. I have been claiming the greatness of democracy because we won, but a 2nd cousin of mine is disappointed and on a Facebook status was disappointed that democracy hasn't come to Lebanon...its all perspective. But at the root of it, choice IS democracy! I love politics!!!

Something I have enjoyed observing is the youth during this election! They are so much more engaged in this election than most in the U.S....this really is the year of historic elections and youth participation! I am always the one in my group of friends (at least at home....at university all my friends are Poli Sci nerds! haha) that brings up politics and I am always shut down! But today all of our friends were talking politics and there were so many people my age on the streets celebrating last night! Its great to see young people vote! I truly think progress can't be achieved without youth participation!!

Lots of things to ponder! (I have too much time on my hands!) Mara comes the day after tomorrow!! I can't believe it!!! And mom dad and soni one day after that! YAAY

Much love,

Sash

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Mabrouk!

It looks like 14 of March (Pro West coalition) is winning tonight!! As long as this doesn't turn out like the mystery November night of 2000 when we all went to bed thinking Al Gore was the next US President and waking up to find George W. Bush the winner 14 of March should have a majority in Parliament! YAY! Probably should wait until tomorrow to get too excited, but people have been celebrating in the streets already! Needless to say the fam is happy and I am off to bed!!!

Much love

Sasha

PS I am putting pics up now!

Very telling article

I am sure most of you wont read this but if you want to read an interesting article my friend Kristina shared with me it is (in my opinion) right on the money. Its a more researched/better way of saying everything I have been thinking, observing and saying since I've been here. Thanks Kristina for the link!



Early results are showing an opposition lead but its very very early.

More to come...

Election Day-pre results

My day started bright and early (for me anyway) at 8am which was strange because my uncle told me we were leaving to vote at 11am. Now, for your information, if you didnt know already there is something we all "lebanese time" If someone says they will leave at one time they actually leave 1-2hrs LATER, this morning I was woken up to leave 3 hrs EARLIER! weird. Anyway, due to my quick readiness and my uncle's chronic lateness I was able to catch the news before going out to vote. The channel I happend to be on was showing an interview with former U.S. President Jimmy Carter, who is one of the international monitors for the Lebanese elections.  He was answering questions on the U.S.'s possible reaction to hypothetical election results (which he didnt actually answer cus, obviously hes not the one who decides those things) as well as questions regarding safety, U.S. confidence in the results and so on. It was really cool seeing one of our Presidents here in Lebanon being so hands on with the election. I think he is probably over compensating for his small blip in his presidency, aka the Iran Hostage crisis (minor right?) ;) but none the less I have appreciated President Carter's enthusiasm for helping the Middle East (aka his books on Palestine and so on)

My uncle, his wife and I went to Tripoli to vote. Interesting part about voting here is you vote where your dad is from, and when a woman marries she votes where her husband's dad is from. So the city I went to vote is where my Grandpa used to vote when he was alive. Which for me was pretty cool. It puts the country and the culture into perspective because it is so small that this is actually possible, could you imagine in the US if you had to vote where your dad was from? No voter change of address? I thought a lot about this in the car, because I did a lot of work when I was working with the state legislature on an electronic voter registration bill that passed so we can change our address online simply....definitely cant do that here. The other strange and fun thing about voting here was the ballot. (my cousin has my cam at an election rally right now but when he gets back i'll put those pictures up with a picture of my "ballot".) It was a very small peice of computer paper with about 10 names printed on it, how did I obtain said ballot you ask? From a kid passing them out in the street as we were stuck in traffic driving in Tripoli, SERIOUSLY!! hahaha it was so funny! I thought it was an advertisement and all of the sudden my uncle passes me one and says "put this in your purse and make sure this is the paper you put in the box, if neone gives you another one put it somewhere else away from this one so you dont vote for the wrong party".  Now, my cousin was saying there are other types of "ballots" but because we voted straight 14 of March party line we only needed this pre printed one. Apparently there are others if you want to mix and match parties (which doesnt happen much I dont think).  

We voted in a poor neighborhood in Tripoli which was really quiet. It is pretty much all 14 of March supporters (14 of March, if you are seeing any American news is the Christian party that is "Pro Democracy" and "Pro West").  The army was there of course but not in as full force as other places (like the city we live actually, there is a lot of contention between parties here so the army is here in force, I've never been so close to a tank before, but thats later in our day).  I went in to vote, they found my name on a big list and gave me an envelope, I went into the little booth and took out my paper from my purse, put it in the envelope and sealed it and dropped it in the white box outside. This is the first time I have ever GONE somewhere to vote!! (damn absentee ballots in WA) So as simple as it was I was pretty pleased. Then I got to stick my thumb in the infamous purple paint and sign my name!! I had major flashbacks of the photos on CNN (AC 360 of course) of the first Iraqi election after the invasion of Baghdad where everyone was coming out with huge smiles and a purple finger! I took a pic of my thumb too dont worry! It is still very purple for the record! I am glad I didnt do my nails yesterday like planned!

After voting my uncle (who voted in a different building because men and women vote in different places--dont get me started, I actually dont know why that is...could be a stupid reason but I am chosing to think it gives women a little more freedom actually so she doesnt have her dad, brother or husband staring over he shoulder when she votes, maybe the seperation gives her more of a choice.....thats what I am telling myself so my feministy side doesnt get pissed off) :) and aunt and I went to my mom and my fave desert place and had some breakfast (yes its a desert place that serves breakfast) it was delish!!!

Since then we have been sitting at home. I am editing my cousin's english paper and doing nothing basically. The highlight of the day post voting was going out to try to find some corn to eat when we ran into a big political "rally" where the two opposing christian parties were gathered one on one side of the street and the other on the other side with the army seperating them....it was a cool scene.  I tried to take some pictures but when we got close enough to see anything a soldier saw me take a picture of a tank and told me to put the camera away.  We headed home after that, didnt want to be in the middle of a cross fire. Right now it just looks like a gathering but it could turn ugly if too many ppl get rowdy (ok side note, I just misspelled "roudy" looked at it and in my head said an old cheer from HS which made me realize I spelt it wrong...wow--- Lets get a little bit rowdy R-O-W-D-Y! hahahaha see cheer makes you smart) My cousin Zouzou went back to see it, and took my cam so I hope he is getting good footage!

We are of course hoping we win the majority in our town but also overall, the results are just barely starting to come in! If we win there will be celebrations in the streets and little sleep! We'll see! It is a very important election for Lebanon. I have always described Lebanon to people as the world's Pawn if you will. If the Middle East is a chess board, Lebanon is always getting pushed around, or jumped or whatever. Its been traded between the French, Americans and Syrians, its been invaded and bombed by Israel and its being manipulated now by Syria and Iran.  I just learned that the Parliament is actually the one who choses the Pres and Prime Minister, so it is very important to have a majority in Parliament of the party you agree with because it means you have a better chance of having a president/prime minister that you agree with. It is also an important election because the majority in this little Parliament has global ramifications. The Christian 8th of March coalition is teaming with the Shi'ite Hezbollah who is being armed and funded by Iran and Syria and the other Christian coalition 14 of March is aligned with Sunnis Muslims and the US (and the West in general). SOOO as you can see whoever gets the majority has some pretty big players to deal with. They are saying if Hezbollah/8th of March get the majority and therefore control of the government Israel will obvviously not be happy and the US will either be very unhappy or have to change its policies towards the region. What is interesting I learned from the news today is Hezbollah is not actually seeking any more seats than it already has in the current government, but because of this Christian split, an 8th of March win is actually giving them more pull. 

I think that is enough political "analysis" for the day. CNN has a few good articles on the election and on the ramifications and such (aka real analysis) if you want to check it out. 

I am going to go eat dinner, when results are in I'll post again!

Much Love,

Sasha

Friday, June 5, 2009

Word on the street is....

Our friends were talking to day that some of their American friends have been recieving emails from the U.S. Embassy telling them not to panic and there is no need to leave Lebanon this weekend due to the elections. The U.S. Government seems to think that the election on Sunday will go smoothly and little chaos should ensue. That is good news. But I am curious as to why the U.S. Gov didnt send me an email?! haha Maybe they dont care about me! Just thought you should know that at least the US is predicting a safe and peaceful election, they just warn (like everyone already knows) to stay away from large crowds and try not to go out a lot this weekend.

Much love,

Sasha

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Despite a previous post....

I am proud of President Obama for making such an effort to reach out to the Middle East. 2 trips to the ME in 4 months, that is impressive! Not to mention my fave VP Biden was here last week too! Although, not surprisingly, I did disagree with a few comments in regards to the USA's relationship with Israel. But his speach overall is really good and definitely change from the previous administration.  I hope the people of the ME see it as sincere and progress is able to be achieved in regards to the peace process! 

Much Love,

Sasha

(I am watching his speach on LBC now, with Arabic simultaneously being translated over his voice....this is difficult. Although the simultaneous translation is nice, picking up a few words!)

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Elections part 1

Parliamentary Elections are just around the corner (Sunday) and the whole country is gearing up for it! Papa requested (or maybe it was Nana using Papa's name...couldn't tell!) Regardless, one of my grandparents requested reflections on the elections. While I don't have reflections now, I do have observations!

It is really interesting (as a Political Scientist---can I say that now that I graduated?) to be here during election season because there are so many things that are different but also the same as in the U.S. First of all, in the U.S. everything doesn't shut down for 2 days, people dont spend the week prior to the election selecting where to go based on where thre might be a threat and the army doesn't post up in every city. Thats the first set of things that are very different. Today we drove by teh place where the boys play soccer and there was a line of tanks and other army vehicles outside...no more soccer for the week.

Something that is very the same as the US is election coverage is everywhere. Every billboard is campaign sign (I am trying to figure out how I can get some pictures of them), every news channel is focusing on the elections ahead. Democracy in the Middle East is a pretty new phenomena so everyone watches to see if this election will uphold democracy or fail it.

I really hope I can get a picture of me voting...I dont know what the rules are in that regard, and I am assuming there will be a lot of army people there, so I may not want to risk it! (side note, this entry is taking forever for me to right cus every few seconds I have to itch a fricken mosquito bite on my foot or leg..grrr)

In other news, I just got off the phone with my two cousins and uncle and mom....it was a great conversation full of mutual insults and jokes about my wit and intelligence!! :) I love my family!! But it did sound like they had a good hike up Saddle Rock....except maybe for Matt! ;)

Ok, thats all I've got....

Much love,

Sasha

Mosquitos...

Are the bain of my existance. I am itching like crazy!!! When does your body get used to the bites? The funniest part is I am thinking "yay I am going home soon, no more parasitic bugs!!" THEN I remember I am coming to Minnesota only days after returning to the states....you guys have big mosquitos there!!!! Good news is I am trying to kill them as fast as they are eating me!! Who said an eye for an eye isnt a good policy? ;)

Only a few more days until the elections!! Its very interesting being here during election season!! Everyone in America should appreciate our amazing peaceful transfer of power! Election day is Sunday and all day Sunday and Monday everything will be closed and people won't be going out this weekend. All for safety reasons. Its interesting. 

Only a week until Mara gets here and a week and one day till Mom, Dad and Soni get here! We're all getting very excited! Its fun being on the other side of it all! Everyone is starting to prepare for their arrival, cleaning and getting the house "summerized" and all of that...I never see that cus usually I am arriving! YAAY! I am very excited for them to get here!! Bcause Mara has never been here and Soni hasnt been here in a long time, I am hoping we get to do all the "tourist" stuff!! Which will provide for lots of good pictures!!!

Well, I am going to get back to killing these silly mosquitos!! Have a good day!!

Much love,

Sasha

PS I am so pleased with myself because I created a "how well do you know me" quiz on facebook and its proving to be tricky!! My best friend Hutch only got a 50% and even my dad barely passed with a 70% mwahahahahaaha I am so mysterious!!!! :)